So.. Methinks insomnia's kicking in again.. Cause I'm fucking sleepy yet I can't seem to fall asleep.. The last time it was this bad was during the exam times, I think.. But that I get.. this? pffft.. Feck that! So frustrating this!
Anyway, I don't really know what's in my mind tonight.. It's just all these random thoughts that come all of a sudden.. like pop-up adds! lol.. Like it's nothing worth thinking so much about.. I mean it's useless.. haha.. I don't know whats wrong with me and my mind.. I don't think anyone will get me.. Although, methinks Carmen and Shotaro are pretty darn close! ;) hewhewhew..
When I read this quote months ago, I thought of Sho.. I told him that AFTER he left though.. I also told him that.. I feel the complete opposite now since he left, I've been having dreams of him and that I like sleeping early cause I get to dream.. But now I can't.. pfft.. Lol.. Is it sad that I still talk about Sho as if there's still hope? -_- mang.. I think I'm getting more and more pathetic by the second! geeeez..
My favourite pair of sleeping shorts is buruk-ing! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! =(
Okay.. Im gonna change my approach.. I'm gonna leave my lights on and not try to fall asleep.. Yes.. That should work.. No.. That WILL work..
I need a smaller car to drive.. I miss Sho's car.. =(
(Wow.. I havent done this in awhile.. sorry in advanced for the lousyness!)
So.. I'm in bed.. with my laptop.. in the dark.. It's 4:30am and I can't sleep.. I'm always like this when I think or worry too much before I go to bed.. You may ask, what in the world would I be thinking about? I've got everything I need and bladiblablabla..
Well, I've already got a coupla things off my mind by talking it out with someone and also by sending a shitass long message to Sho.. that always makes me feel so much better.. But still...... Iunno man.. Things just get to me so easily.. I guess I'm a loser like that.. Like after I stop thinking about one thing.. Another thing comes up.. And I have to go through all these shit again.. It's a vicious cycle really..
*Qydah breaks out into a song* It's like this (this).. It's like that (tha--
Anywaysss.. you know where you feel like youre having a lazy Sunday.. Waking up late.. Staying in your PJs till late afternoon.. etc etc etc.. Well.. You know what I think? I think that I have waaay too much free time in my hands that I've been having lazy Sunday EVERfreakingDAY.. haha.. Okay.. No.. I exaggerated.. I actually just had a lazy Sunday on a Wednesday.. Now aint that bizzare? okay.. no.. I dont know what's wrong with me.. I think it's cause I cant freaking sleep! I was sooo sleepy just now.. I was ready to sleep.. but dont you get that feeling that where you're about to sleep but then realised that you had one last time to do.. and it couldnt wait.. so you got out of bed to do it only to realise that you no longer feel sleepy.. feck that mannnn..
It's Thursday now.. So this is the one week mark of Sho being away.. Whoah.. I reckon that felt SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUPER slow.. I remember us talking bout him leaving 2 weeks before his leaving date.. Boy, did that 2 weeks went by fast.. Thats no fair.. =( whyyyy?? gosh.. Everyone's leaving Brunei and it feels like.. No ones here anymore.. our year's losing people by the secondddd.. whyyy? Why do they have to leave me at a time like this?? At my time of need.. Goshh..
No, im kidding.. Im not that selfish..
Anyways.. I wonder if my parents will let me drive on my own anytime soon.. It'd be totally awesome if they would.. People's houses would be my main target.. MOON! LAURA! NAJ! Watch outttt.. hee hee hee..
Later today, I vow to get off my ass and get something done.. (most likely some uni preps.. pfft)HEEE.. GUYS GUYS! IN 2 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can smell the freedom already.. hewhewhew.. =P
I think me needs a Shotaro Nakagun.. Any idea where in Brunei I can get one? =O
I wish I could teleport.. =(
So.. Shotaro just left last night.. On his birthday.. Which is totally shitty.. =(
Happy Belated Birthday, Sho! Wish you didn't have to leave.. =(
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I love you and I miss you shitloads! =(
No regrets. Never forget. yes? =)
Happy four months, Saxy~ =)
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry.. ='(
Sooo.. Haven't been blogging properly in a while.. Lol.. Sorry.. Just been going out a lot lately and when I get back home I'll be like really tired or couldnt even bother.. But yes.. Days have been very very fun.. So yes, I've been out.. to parties.. meeting up with 'long time no see friends' and all.. been out with the boyfriend (after he came back.. those 10 days without him was shitty.. but hey, I made it! lol..).. Finally had Sho come over the other day.. =D haha.. too bad I was busy getting ready for Chloe's so he had to be entertained by my brothers and Sheila.. lol.. Did stuff.. and yeah.. the likes.. =) I probably should be worried at the moment since Sho just came back from Japan and people who just flew in from overseas are advised to stay indoors and reduce social interactions and also I've been going to crowded places alot.. Too bad I'm not.. But maybe this 93 cases and 1 death will start to scare me (it already is actually)..
Finally got to meet up with the usual gang today! It's been a while.. =) Spent the whole day with em.. And this time, we were all over Brunei! (well not really.. but yeah.. haha)
Anyway, results! In 3 days! Im sooo nervous.. =\ Like, my whole future depends on what I get.. shiiyaaatt.. Like, UK? Leicester/Hull? Clearing? Melbourne? Accommodations? Shizz ma nizz (KIM! -_-) Sucks that we cant go to school and get it though.. Was looking forward to it.. But whatever.. Atleast I wont face people.. haha..
Hmm.. yeah.. okay.