So.. Today was a good day.. =) The girls and I wore our baju kurongs today.. No pictures though.. =( Oh well.. I handed in my last DT IA today!!! Ooooooooooooooooh yeaaaaaaaah.. haha.. I panicked early in the morning though cause I left my pendrive at home.. that was like.. IB's worst scenario or something.. haha

Oh! Oh! Look what I did in English today...

Innit purrrrdyyyy? hahaha.. I thought of it yesterday in Maths.. cause I got so sick of looking at the time.. Seriously, it moved sooo slow.. So yes.. I ended up doing that with a smiley face.. Cause it prevents me from looking at the time and I always end up smiling and forget about the time.. Smart innit? =P haha..

ANYWAY.. Because I was soooo busy today, I forgot to tell my brother what time to pick me up.. So.... I had to wait at school till 1:45pm.. =( It's cool though cause I had company till 1:15 and BGIC people to look at after.. haha.. So went home.. Got an hour's rest.. and off I went to tennis! I thought I was late and I felt so bad.. BUTTTT.. Someone else came later than I did.. due to what? A flood that reached the.. 9th floor issit? And some big tiger or some shit like that.. HAHA.. so.. I had to wait.. -_- What do I do when I'm bored waiting??.........

My bangs panjang sudaaah.. Can't be bothered to get it cut every month.. Might just let it grow now.. haha..
I'm a Nike person.. screw adidas.. hahahaha.. I kid waaah.. =P



So yes, tennis.. I thought I've forgotten everything butttt.. I was actually pretty good! Hahah.. Proud ku yoooo.. =P

Oh.. My dad brought me out after that.. I actually had fun being with my dad alone.. Like we went grocery shopping first.. then we went to makan.. And we had like these cool conversations.. Which usually I never listen to.. But this time, I actually did.. and it was very interesting.. Made me realise how much I love my family.. =) I love these bonding moments.. haha.. Like the ride home was filled with smart and interesting conversations with my dad.. I love it.. I think my dad's finally realising that I'm.. *gasp* no longer a kid.. haha..

I'm feeling rather headachey at the moment.. So will go off nowwww.. Loves~ =)

All I can say is that.. no one can be trusted nowadays.. I learned from my mistake..
I can't believe you.. You know how I felt about her but you still went for it.. This just confirmed all the things that I thought was possible eventhough you told me otherwise.. You actually made me feel bad for suspecting that about you.. BUT HEY, it's TRUE! I guess that's why I was so paranoid towards the end cause I already knew it.. And now I've got proof..
And I also believe in Karma now.. do you?

I cant..
I cant..
I cant..
I want to..
But I cant..

Everything was fine.. Until... sigh..

How..?? Why..??

I can't do it.. I thought I could.. But.. I'm weak..


Stop doing this to me.. =(



EDIT!! [8:12 PM]



I just remembered I took this picture today..


Chris S', Aiman's, mine, Sho's and Rajeev's..

It's a wonder how I came late to English today.. hahaha.. =P And.. I laughed so hard reading the first page of The Colour Purple.. Gosh.. So immature of me.. haha..

In bed I lay, with nothing but your T-shirt on.
oh, with nothing but your T-shirt on.

Exchanging watches ♥
Sunday was such a good day! Spent the entire day with the lovely girlfriends.. =D Went to Tasek Lama with the girls.. Jogged for a couple of rounds.. Then went to up the hill.. What scared the shit out of us was when a bunch of monkeys were approaching us and I'm all shit shit shit LAURA! DONT LEAVE ME! DONT LEAVE ME! DONT LEAVE ME! lol.. We jogged once more after reaching the bottom.. oh oh.. We came across a biawak while walking past the bridge.. and it freaking scared us.. hahah.. We did so much more than last week.. Haha.. After thaaaat.. We WALKED from Tasek Lama to Yayasan! Under the hot blazing sun.. Mind you, it was at 12! So now, we're all red from being sunburned.. My face feels so padih at the moment.. =( It was so much fun though.. =D




So anyway, went home and had a heavy lunch.. -_- hahaha.. Played DDR! and other Wii games.. The girls followed to send off my mummy to the airport and we slept in the car.. shows how sleepy we were.. then last minutely, we decided to go out.. We chilled at Chill! (WHOAH WHOAH WHOAH!) haha.. And we're like.. hmmmm.. why do people like hanging out here ah? haha.. So after more than an hour.. We left.. And we walked from mall to centerpoint and back again.. AND back again.. We were so freaking jobless.. There was this one time where we had these 'stalkers' who followed us from centerpoint to mall then back to centerpoint.. So far.. -_- so we met up with one of our guy friends to get rid of them.. And we thought we succeeded.. Theeeen.. when we wanted to walk to TK, their car just passed right infront of us! shit! -_- hahaha.. So, we decided to bullshit our way out.. LOL! =D Spent about half an hour at TK then left.. Haha.. We did soooooo much walking for that day.. My legs hurt like shit now.. -_- I came home past midnight again, and no one asked me to come home right away.. hahaha.. I love it.. =D

Chilling.. HAHAHA! GEDDIT?? GEDDIT?? "Chill"-ing?? HAHAHA.. hmm.. -_-
TK-ing at midnight

Ended up sleeping in the car..

Awesome weekend! Thanks girls~ =)


HAPPY 25th NATIONAL DAY BTW! haha..

OMG OMG OMG OMG!

My birthday's roughly in a month time..
Our last assembly/last day of school is in 2 months time..
Our last exam is in 3 months time..
Our graduation is in 4 months time..
Our results come out in 5 months time..
Our....*inserts something that'll happen*.. in 6 months time..
We're leaving (UK students, hopefully) in 7 months time..

SHIIIT! =D

OH! And..

My BGIC VI helper buddy!
My KK shopping buddy! (besides Naj)
My Amazing Race team mate!
My 'scaring-kids-in-Haunted-house' partner!
My person to look at when singing the 'atitude' part in HMS Pinafore!
My TOK presentation partner..
Besides that, she's also my ITGS girl, my listening ear, my shoulder to cry on, my annoying friend who keeps asking ridiculous questions about herself, my favourite girl in school to annoy (besides Naj), my over-reacting friend and so much more..

Eventhough you don't read my blog.. but.... I LOVE YOU DHAH! ♥ =)

You're my favourite girl singer =)

I love Ali Lohan's All The Way Around.. (I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK... GO AWAY! lol..)

hmmm.. Kim wants me to blog but I don't know what to blog about..

Well.. I've been having pretty good days lately.. =) IAs almost done... IB's almost done... My birthday's near.. and my life's starting to pick up again.. haha..

OH.. I had a fun few days.. Been having a nice mother&daughter bonding lately after school.. We go out to eat then we go shopping then I try to convince her to let me learn driving right after my birthday.. but I always end up giving up.. pfft.. haha.. Oh.. yesterday I went to BIBD to watch them MDians play netball.. I didn't play cause they all (well, the girls lah) played so well and I felt intimidated.. haha.. but yeah.. Hmm.. today was a good day too..


edit: I just remembered that it's our DT teacher's birthday too today.. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM TOO! =D








heehee.. :)

OOOOOOOOOOOH SHIET..

I did it again.. Damn it! -_-

LOL.. I may seem pretty jobless updating the blog regularly.. but believe me, I've been doing work! ^_^

Today I actually brought myself to check up on something that I've been avoiding for weeks.. And guess what? I'm alright.. =) It was hard.. But knowing that it has not affected me is such a relief.. I guess a month was all I needed.. I'm ready now.. =) I'm a believer again.. lol..

Sorry for being rather vague.. lol.. =P

Im outside right now.. Appreciating mother nature at its best.. My brother just came back from work and saw me.. I told him the exact same thing.. And he was all.. Bullshit! hahah.. Actually, even I don't believe it.. I just find it really relaxing.. Sigh.. =)

Anyway, I felt so totally dead in school today.. Like.. Walking was such a bitch.. My body was sooo weak.. -_- My eyes and brain failed me today.. I was listening but I couldn't grasp anything that was being taught.. pfft.. useless..

My mummy playfully smacked me in the head with this book she was reading just now.. I don't remember why though.. I think it's cause I made a witty comment or some sort.. And I'm like.. holy shit (in my head lah) and said.. mum.. you trying to knock knowledge outta my head? If I don't get 30 points then you'll know.. haha.. and she replied with "actually, I'm trying to knock knowledge INTO your head so you'd get 40 points" -_- haha.. My head hurt like fuck after that.. She massaged my head for me.. I love my mummy.. =)

Speaking of which, my mum's been really... cool? lately.. She's asking stuff about my personal life in which she seemed really interested in.. And I wasn't afraid to tell her these stuff.. She used to go all haywire when she finds out that I fancy a guy or something.. But now she's all understanding.. which I still find weird.. but whatever~ Mummy ku cool.. =) haha.. And also, when I go out, she doesn't call me at night anymore asking me to come home.. Like, I've been coming home past midnight for the past few weekends and she doesn't mind.. haha.. MUMMY KU COOL! =D

I guess that's enough of why my mum is so cool for today.. I need a shower now.. I stink.. =\

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.. =D

I had an awesome Saturday niight~

So me and Carmen baked cupcakes for Valentine's Day.. Gave them to Bai, Kim and Waj.. our.. dates..? maybe? haha.. We were lateee~ But it's cool.. Met the guys up infront of Coffee Bean and off we went to Kiulap in Bai's car (YES, BAI CAN DRIVE NOW!! AWESOMENESS =D) looking for a place to eat.. The first two restaurants we went to were packed! -_- and so we ended up in Seri Kandi (sp?) at 9.. -_- lol.. Them boys got us chocolates and roses.. So sweeeeet.. =) heehee.. The restaurant provided us with roses too..












So yeah.. After dinner we ended up at the mall after hours and didnt know what to do.. so we 'roamed' around gadong and stopped by Coffee Zone where I met Chris and Ayeshah! =D heehee.. so yeah.. was getting late and we had to stop by Laura's so we left at around 11.. Arrived at Laura's at 1130.. Poor girl's sick.. She was supposed to join us.. but oh well.. we received roses again! So like.. We got 3 roses each.. heehee.. =D Stayed at Laura's for a bit.. and we felt dead tired.. Came home and slept.. aha.. Carmen and I call it our..'Anti'-Valentine's Day.. haha.. whatever lah.. I had funn.. =) Thanks guys~




So anyway, just morning.. Carmen and I went for a jog at the stadium's track and field place.. We felt so fucking sleepy.. So we didnt manage to do much.. haha..

I still cannot believe how all this happened oh so fast..... In a blink of an eye.. One night.. Just one night.. and it went from everything to nothing..

sigh..

I thought I was alright.. I guess not.. I'm not gonna cry......... ='(
i miss you booboo.. =(

You know how you feel when you look at those pictures of couples who've been together for years and they still look happy? I just went through my friend's facebook profile and saw a photo of her and her boyfriend.. I hooked them up like.. in 2005 and they're still an item! Sweet.. =) If I weren't so.. blah.. I think I wouldve had that with someone.. But OH WELLS.. All good things come to an end.. HAHA! EMO!

Haha.. Okay, maybe this Valentines Day thingy is getting to me.. I mean, over the years, the day has given me loads of shit.. both good shit and bad shit.. A whole load of history with this one particular person on V'day since 2004..? Just three years ago, valentines day was the best day of life.. two years ago I hated it like shit till I actually asked my parents to get plane tickets to Melbourne for the 14th of February so that I didn't have to be in Brunei on that day.. and blah.. I don't know lah.. It just.. gets to me sometimes..

But whatever, cause I have my magic beans.. =)

I'm loving Sheila to bits by the way.. ♥

Before I start off today's post, I just wanna say that, please don't hate me after reading this.. I know what I did was wrong! I haven't quite forgiven myself yet..

Just about more than a year ago, I used to make a guy cheat on his girlfriend.. Well, I didn't force him to do so.. But me layan-ing him encouraged him to do it.. I was naive.. He convinced me that it was okay cause she wouldnt care and she didnt love him.. So I.. 'pursued' him.. He fell for me and I was already on the verge of falling for him.. It took me about over a month to realise what I was doing was wrong.. It's okay.. You can judge me cause I'm judging myself.. So anyway, after realising what I was doing, I decided to let him go eventhough I liked him alot cause I knew that it was wrong.. I kept thinking like, what if I were in her shoes? That'd be so fucking painful.. I realised I could never do that to any girl.. It was hard for me but it was the right thing to do.. I never told my friends about this.. cause I didnt want them to judge.. I wish I did though cause I needed someone to tell me that it was wrong.. but oh well.. What to do.. A friend of mine was in the same position, I told him to stop before he could do any more damage to the girl's relationship.. Told him if it was meant to be, they'd end up together in the near future.. He didn't listen though.. It took him ageeees to end it.. When he did, it hurt him so fucking bad cause they were already deeply involved with each other..

So anyway, just recently, I got the.. 'opportunity' to do this again.. But once I realised what I was getting into and before falling in too deep again, I stopped! Letting the first guy go was shit.. I dont wanna do the same thing anymore.. He made me fall for him but he knew for a fact that I could never have him.. Can you say cruel? Im not doing this again.. Im learning from my mistake.. Its done.. Mark my words boys and girls, cause I sure as hell am not that kind of girl.. and hey, this just made me realise that all guys are alike.. No exceptions.. Thats just the same with all girls being a... bitch? haha.. Girls, learn from my mistake cause its such a shitty thing to do to each other.. Us girls need to stick together yo! haha.. And guys, don't be so foolish as to break up with your girlfriend for some other girl.. DONT, I tell you! -_-

To either one of you, if you happen to stumble upon my blog one day, I'm sorry.. this never should have happened.. and sorry if I ruined your relationships.. I'm done now..

Remember, Kau dan aku.. =') sigh..

I am soooo loving life once again.. Haha.. =)

Anyways, yesterday was such a good day.. Went out with the brothers and dad for lunch.. Then we went around searching for a cat.. and saw this Japanese breed or something.. It was soooo lawaaaaaa... The fur.. OMG.. too bad it wasnt for sale.. And the flat nosed cats looked kinda weird.. But I loveee the bulu.. haha..

Went to pick up Carmen from MD after that.. We went gift hunting for Laura's '18 things'.. Aha.. We had to rush though cause it was getting late and we had to go home to get ready for Laura's birthday dinner.. Boy, were we lateeee.. haha.. but wait.. that just added to the plan... the plan where we didn't care about her birthday.. We even gave her a card with only 2 bucks in it.. Can you say cheap??? hahaha.. man.. her expression when she opened the card was so.. ooo.. kaaay..? haha.. We were even kinda bitchy to her.. Dinner was really great though.. Had loads of fun.. taking pictures, meeting everyone.. Meeting someone *cough*.. haha.. Couldnt stop blushing.. damnn..

Anyway, after dinner was the surprise.. the initial plan was that me and Carmen suprise Laura at her house after Laura goes home.. But last minutely, Carmen asks if we should ask Bai, Kim and Waj to join since it'll be more fun that way.. haha.. So yeah.. We wanted to wait for Laura to go home.. But then, last minutely AGAIN.. I was all.. OH! MAYBE WE SHOULD BE THERE BEFORE LAURA GOES HOME! So we decided to leave Laura on her own.. and ran like shit to Kim's car.. haha.. We were all nervous and excited and panicky! haha.. Arrived at Laura's place and the dogs started barking like maddd! haha.. Carmen was all jumpy.. haha.. And like, I was sooo scared that Laura would arrive like any second.. so we rushed to Laura's room.. got things ready and waited for Laura to come to lit the candles.. But thennnn.. stupid airconditioner blew the candles and left laura with only one candle.. So yeah, we turned off the lights and stood infront of the door.. So when Laura came in, we screamed surpriiiiise! and she was surprised! hahaha.. and her expression.. was.. omg.. hahaha.. I was recording..but then I got too excited and accidentally stopped recording just when Laura came in.. I was like.. SHIT! hahaha.. But oh well, it was a success.. =D She was shaking and was all.. I DONT WANNA CRY! hahaha.. So yeah.. We had cake and stayed at her place till the last second of her birthday.. ahah.. Shows how much we loooove herrr.. heehee.. =D

Carmen sleptover last night.. Was so freaking tired.. But we managed to play DDR and some shooting game.. aha.. Carmen was all.. dont sleep lah.. but couldnt tahan.. had to sleep..

Today, we last minutely decided to watch Bride Wars.. Laura was kinda lazy to go at first but I was all.. how can you do this to us? we gave you a surpriseeee! hahaha.. but yeah.. it was just us 3 to the movies.. the movie was gooooood and we smuggled in McD.. hahah.. Towards the end of the movie, it was so sad.. I was trying not to cry but I saw that Carmen and Laura were crying so I had to cry.. lol.. Went to Snow Ice after that and played Jenga Truth or Dare.. wasnt fun so we stopped.. aha.. Was a good day..

Oh and! after I came home riight.. Arif told me that dad wanted to see me and I was all.. shit.. cause Arif was like.. I think you're in trouble.. And I was thinking it was cause I came home after maghrib.. So I went up and saw that daddy got us a new cat!!!!! =D Her name's Sheila..



Picturessss!






More pictures here and here

Can't wait for next weekend! If yknow what I mean.. ;) *looks at Laura and Carmen*

18 legal and sexaaaay.. My gaaad.. =O haha.. Now all that's left is me.. in 47 days! =D

Happy 18th birthday, Laura.. I love you! =)

I gotta go now for lunch and all.. But I'll definitely add more soon... heehee.. =D

Kalau cinta ku dibalas, mengapa kau harus pergi, kembalilahhh
Apa salah ku itu, mengapa kau tinggalkan aku, kembalilaahhhh..

A Band Once's Kembalilah is very the awesomeeeeeeeeeeee.. =D Just found out that Adi's the bassist.. aha.. I likeeeee.. =D Been singing the song the whole dayy..

Anywayyy, I handed in my Malay World lits! =D yaaay..

Gonna go back to doing DT now.. =(

Busy busy busy..

TOK essay..

Malay world lit.. the dictionary's my saviour..

Qydah
17. 26th March.
IB victim. ISB.
Not a pessimist but a realist.
Shy. Indecisive. Weird.
In love with music.
Friends make my day.


. Ada. Adam. Aiman. Amelia. Ayeen. Bai. Carmen. Chloe. Chris. Dean. Dian. Duan. Eyan&Faisal. Farhan. Fauzi. Isa. KamKam. Kimmy Kim. Mezzy. Moonyrah. Muazz. Nadia. Nadjma. Nurul. Qeelah. Qeels. Qeeqah. Rachel. Rasssh. Shim. Syara. Umi. Vernon. Wajdi. Yesmean. Yvonne. Zeer. Ziqa.





Before I leave: Visa. Scholarship(?). Medical Check up(?). New battery for laptop. Empire Beach. Spend time with friends. Photograph every waking moment left in Brunei. Sleep at abang's house for a few times. Make amends. Pack.


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