Wednesday, February 11, 2009 @9:53 AM
Before I start off today's post, I just wanna say that, please don't hate me after reading this.. I know what I did was wrong! I haven't quite forgiven myself yet..
Just about more than a year ago, I used to make a guy cheat on his girlfriend.. Well, I didn't force him to do so.. But me layan-ing him encouraged him to do it.. I was naive.. He convinced me that it was okay cause she wouldnt care and she didnt love him.. So I.. 'pursued' him.. He fell for me and I was already on the verge of falling for him.. It took me about over a month to realise what I was doing was wrong.. It's okay.. You can judge me cause I'm judging myself.. So anyway, after realising what I was doing, I decided to let him go eventhough I liked him alot cause I knew that it was wrong.. I kept thinking like, what if I were in her shoes? That'd be so fucking painful.. I realised I could never do that to any girl.. It was hard for me but it was the right thing to do.. I never told my friends about this.. cause I didnt want them to judge.. I wish I did though cause I needed someone to tell me that it was wrong.. but oh well.. What to do.. A friend of mine was in the same position, I told him to stop before he could do any more damage to the girl's relationship.. Told him if it was meant to be, they'd end up together in the near future.. He didn't listen though.. It took him ageeees to end it.. When he did, it hurt him so fucking bad cause they were already deeply involved with each other..
So anyway, just recently, I got the.. 'opportunity' to do this again.. But once I realised what I was getting into and before falling in too deep again, I stopped! Letting the first guy go was shit.. I dont wanna do the same thing anymore.. He made me fall for him but he knew for a fact that I could never have him.. Can you say cruel? Im not doing this again.. Im learning from my mistake.. Its done.. Mark my words boys and girls, cause I sure as hell am not that kind of girl.. and hey, this just made me realise that all guys are alike.. No exceptions.. Thats just the same with all girls being a...
bitch? haha.. Girls, learn from my mistake cause its such a shitty thing to do to each other.. Us girls need to stick together yo! haha.. And guys, don't be so foolish as to break up with your girlfriend for some other girl.. DONT, I tell you! -_-
To either one of you, if you happen to stumble upon my blog one day, I'm sorry.. this never should have happened.. and sorry if I ruined your relationships.. I'm done now.. Remember, Kau dan aku.. =') sigh..